My general good contented mood continues....meds are good but this feels different. A very relaxed but productive day at work. Caught up on some dvr stuff this evening.
Plans for the weekend include a gathering of friends at a sports bar to watch two football games and laugh a lot. ECU is one game; UNC, the other. I have a free pass to the art exhibition at NCMA...so that's a possibility....and/or a trip to the flea market. Outdoors should be perfection!
The ex-beau and I were attempting plans of some sort; truly hoping we could be friends as I CAN enjoy his company and I hate to lose that. But pretty soon in conversation, I begin to feel less confident, less at peace. He has a very sarcastic and controlling manner and, to me, it is hurtful. We were together for 3 years! ...like a moth to a flame.... My hope was that edge would dissipate if we weren't involved.....that does not seem to be the case at all... Why would you want to verbally or emotionally injure someone on purpose? I don't understand at all; not even sure I want to anymore. Makes me sad though...
Now where was I with my general good and contented self? Put some Iris Dement in to play and rejoice in me and moving forward. Hello Saturday!
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I knew a guy like that once. With time I came to realize that he wasn't attacking me, it was how he handled the craziness of life. Enjoy your weekend and new puppy.
Thanks Ga Girl! You know he has another ex-girl in Georgia! Maybe it's you!
My take is: if 10 other friends make you feel respected and valued when talking to them, why would I struggle with spending effort on the 1 that makes TRIES to make me feel less than I am.
That does sound like a conundrum.
for you perhaps, utenzi.....I've got it figured out though!
If you ever determine you need or want a true friend with whom no pretense is needed and deceit isn't welcome, you know where I am.
Til then, enjoy your tiny fortress.
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